another day

Hey guys.

I just finished my third day. My boss is still a prick. I'll give you an example.

I was to dice red onion into very small bits for our house made chili. He took the onion, diced up half of it, showing how he wanted me to do it. Fine. So on my cutting board was half an onion that needed to be cut, and half an onion that was already cut up by douche bag.

After he shows me how to cut it, he walks away. A buddy of mine told me nicely where I could find more onion to dice... so I got into the walk in cooler and grab some more. I get back to my cutting board, and just as I start to cut more onion, my boss says

No... You're not listening to me. They have to cut finer then that.

He budges in and again demonstrates how to do it.

But that was HIS onion that HE cut. I had not chopped anything. What a TOOL! I was going to say something, but I just smiled nicely and thank you.


haha... he really lacks some social skills. I feel sorry for people like that. Everyone thinks he is an asshole. He has such a short fuse. As I said to one of the cooks, 'If his kid spills his milk at the dinner table, what does he do? Slap him in the face?'

haha.. That's a John Candy line. God bless you John.

Speaking of John Candy, there are numerous giant framed photos of him at second city. There is a great one in my stand up comedy class room. He still inspires me, even after all these years.


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Ok, so sappy sad warning...

First off, I know things are going well for me. School is amazing, my first stand up gig is coming up and I have a decent job.

But after my first day of work, which did not treat me well, I was an emotional wreck. I wasn't going to write about this, but I figured the only people we actually read this are the only people I would ever tell this too.

Multiple times that day, I drifted off into my head. I asked myself.. what am I doing here? Working in this kitchen, here in Toronto? Away from all the love in my life. I could not help but feel lonely and scared. I was breaking down. I could not help but think of my close family and friends, who have helped me get this far. I thought of Dylan, who has been my best friend in so many ways, for more years then I can remember. I thought of him and Deanne, and how beautiful she is, and how happy I am they are together. I thought of the summer nights at Steve's house, and the endless hours of us laughing and being together. I thought of Cliff, and all the amazing times we have had over the last few years, and how amazingly close we have become. I thought of my Mom and Dad, and I thought.. I am doing all this for them. I thought how lucky I was, to be raised in such a loving and healthy environment, where I was told I could do anything I ever wanted and how I still believe that today. I thought of my sister Kelsey, who has been there for me all the way, and will continue to do so. I thought of my friend Greg, who I have shared some amazing times with, and who has sent my some messages over the last little while when I needed it the most, even tho he didn't know it. I thought of my friend Chris Carrol, who has been nothing short of amazing to me with love and support. Captain Conway, who has helped me in more ways then he knows or understands. My friends Grant and Graham who have taken me under their wing over here in Toronto, and have made the transition that much easier. I thought of Marcus and how much I miss him. I thought of my friend Hayley who I have shared so much with over the years, and who I continue to keep in touch with. Don and Hazel Tufford who have been nothing short of amazing in my life. I also thought of Don and his on going support of the blog and him leaving comments that made my laugh and smile. I think of my amazing friends I have met along the way. You know who you are.


I was riding the street car home that day, thinking of all this and I could not help but cry. Cry to myself, in public, on my way home, alone. Cry for all the love I have in my life. Cry for all the challenges I have faced so far. Cry for the amazing future that is ahead of me.

I cry for the fact I am away from the most important people in the world.

I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, I just want you to know how much I love you.

Because I do.